Creativity is starting...
I haven't felt very creative for sometime, but I am glad to say, I think I can feel it returning!!!
Friday, I attended a card workshop with a Lady who appears on a craft channel that I love to watch, so I couldn't fail to be inspired now, could I.
Now I just need the lighter evenings to make me want to go out after work and shoot some pics.... watch this space,and my flickr page too!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/spiralz/
Roll on the lighter evenings...
I can't wait for the point where the weather in the UK turns to staying lighter for longer. I am sick off going to work in the dark and coming home in the dark!
Hope it won't be long....
Today's a great day!!
Today, my hand-made cards appeared on the TV... yes, my cards... on TV... woohoooooo!!!
I am now one of a dozen or so people who make up a design team for a Company who does live shows on Sky TV, "Create and Craft" channel. And today, some of my cards were show along with many, many other samples from the design team.
Let's hope this is the start of better things to come.
Did I say how happy I am.... did I? ;)
Here comes the rain again.....
Oh dear... we have had quite a lot of rain in the last few days. So much so, this morning, the town I live in was partly flooded in areas. So, on instead of going to work by car I made my way on my bicycle to take pictures to document the damage fro works records.
I went out armed with my Canon EOS 350d, on my bike snapping God knows how many pics.... I if I am honest, I really enjoyed it! It has been quite a while since I have used my camera, I just haven't had the ooompf, you know what I mean? but today I got a buzz from it all.
Anyway, we have 2 or more days of very heavy rainfall due, so the sights I saw today are nothing to what will probably come. On a serious note, for anyone who has or is affected, I really do feel for you. My thoughts are with you.
Stay safe, and be well.
x
Happy New Year!!!
Oh my word.... have I really not posted since June 2006... oops, where does the time go?
It's probably partly to do with the fact I had nothing positive to write about, and if I wrote how I felt, you may have like you had "virually" joined me in my deep dark black hole I was existing - not living, noooo, no way was I living I was just going through the motions of seeing one day in and out, they were all with same, no distinction.
In a nutshell, I am up and almost out of my depression, I still have to work on it when I feel myself "slipping" back". For anyone suffering with it, trust me, it will get better. You'll find you will tick along, living moment to moment and then you'll look back and realise that maybe this week you have had more okay days than bad but you didn't notice. That is a good sign, trust me.
I am still having regular check-ups every 3 months for the next year or so, then for the following 2 yrs, every 6 mmonths with my skin specialist for my melignant melanoma (skin cancer) and so far it's looking very positive, so if it does end up coming back we will be ready for it.
I was made redundant from my long standing job in May 2007. The Company decided it would be cheaper to employ outside contractors to do the PA roles instead of having employyes, I was devistated. However, looking back on it now, it was the best thing that could've happened to me. I needed a new start, clean slate, somewhere where people didn't know all the bad stuff that I had gone through, but who would take me at face value and see me, not judge me on what they had heard or assumed. I have been there over 4 months now, and at times it is all too much to cope with, but I have to remind myself that I am doing great considering all I have been through in the last 3 or more years.
Oh *smiles wildly* I did a really wacky thing in November 2007 - I did a Firewalk, walking on 1400 degree hot coals. When I heard it on the local radio, I instantly thought "Oooooh, I want to do that!" so, I did. I can honestly say, I never doubted that I wouldn't complete it, it just wasn't an option in my mind. It was all in the name of Charity, raising over £370 for a local Cancer Hospice.
(The firewalk website is now closed, but I am going to walk on broken glss this year for the same charity, so watch this space for more information.)
2008 is going to be "My year"... I know this because I am going to make it so! Positive thinking and being kinder to myself is my motto. I am working on loving myself inside and out and taking time out for me - this is the hardest thing for me since I always put others before me and try to be liked by everyone.. I get so hurt if people don't like me, instead of thinking "okay, that's your opinion - you win some you lose some!" ;)
So, after sharing with you why very breifly I have been abscent, I hope you will watch out for more postings on here and thank you for swinging by to read about my challenges.
Why not check out my photo's on Flickr
http://www.flickr.com/photos/spiralz/
Where does the time go?
I'm so proud today..... I'm bursting at the seams!
I have two Nephews and one Niece, and they are wondeful (but then I would say that, because I am their Auntie!)
Anyway, I can remember the day each of them were born as though it was yesterday. I have watched them crawl, talk, go to school, seen their grazed knees, watched them get all technical with computers and bogged down with so much homework, and then grow up into unique young adults. And I love them more each day.
My eldest Nephew took his first driving test today, and he passed.... I mean, I know I have watched him grow up, but when did he get to 17 years of age??? Blimey, that means he is now old enough to drive a car and almost old enough to drink alcohol in pubs. He has driven himself to sixth form this afternoon and is jangling his car keys whilst "fluffing out his chest" (rightly so I think!)
Anyway, I just wanted to share some good news with you all for a change :)
(PS -I am still on anti-dpepressants and I have less bad days than I did, so I hope I am on the road to recovery. Thank you everyone who has sent me words of encouragement, it really has helped. xxx)
The silence is broken...
I've been absent from here way too long, sorry.
But I promise to change that soon enough, so watch this space!
